For those of you who send your children to public schools, perhaps you can understand the fear and faithful steps we take in letting go of our babies and setting them free into the world. Maybe you have been exactly where I am. That twisted line between releasing them into the dark to share His Light and wanting so desperately to pull them in closer to the safe haven of protection in our arms.
I struggled with this decision for months, years actually.
As each passing season tested my ability to surrender my child into the countless opportunities that may often be dangerous risks. I continue to hold on to His Purpose in taking that chance. And as terrifying as it may be, I have found that trusting in His Presence through every test and trial has strengthened our faith and solidified His Place in my daughter’s heart.
Middle school has been coined “The Devil’s Playground” which makes this year all the more dangerous and terrifying.
This summer I vacillated between home schooling my daughter and sending her off to school…
I have heard about experiences and circumstances that occur during these formative years that break my heart and shatter my hope. I’ve seen the damage done in exposing the innocent to cultures of bullying, drugs, sex, and rebellious behaviors. It stirs the very core of my mother heart and triggers such a desperate need to cover her in the war torn broken world, and protect her from any stray bullets that can penetrate her very existence.
Will my baby get sucked into the culture that awaits? Or will she be strong enough to hold tight the very values that ground her? Will the pressure be too much for any 11-year old to take? Or will she remain convicted in her conscience?
My daughter still believes in Santa and the tooth fairy.
Who will crush her spirit and tear at her purity? Who will scorn her beauty and suffocate her voice? Who will break her heart and tangle her mind?
I question constantly.
I hear God whisper in the depths of my despair.
“She’s mine. I love her more than you do.”
And with that profound truth, I realize over and over again, that my daughter is placed in God’s Purpose and therefore she will be under God’s Protection and God’s Guidance.
I must trust that with all my heart.
So each day, when I drive her to school and set her free among the masses, watching her walk through the waves of lost souls and scorned hearts. Her sweet smile and precious ponytail reveal her essence of innocence. My heart tightens, my pulse quickens, and my eyes squint to trace her steps into the crowded doors of deliverance. My breath escapes me over and over again, as these morning drop offs are a constant reminder to cling to God’s claims.
I pray these words: “Lord, she is yours. Protect her heart, guide her mind, and lift her soul. I surrender her to your Purpose. I will trust in your truth. You love her more than I. ”
May my child and yours, fulfill God’s purpose out in the world. We risk much and sacrifice all, as we take those faithful steps in letting go.
The world needs more Light, and for those who are called to send their kids to public school…
The mission field is vast and vicious. But He will be Victorious.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity,
but of power, love, and self-discipline.
2 Timothy 2:7 (NLT)
Where have you had to trust God in your parenting?
By Chris Carter
Wife to Derek
Mom of two
SAHM (Stay at Home Mom)
1 Corinthians 13 Parenting Team Member
Blogger at The Mom Cafe