I am guilty of allowing the world, the demands of life, and other people dictate my schedule. I confess, I can be a driven person. One of the beautiful things about being a single mother is that I have learned, out of necessity, to “lean not in my own understanding but to acknowledge Him and He makes my paths straight” (Proverbs 3:5-6). As an avid student of the book Song of Solomon I was taken aback when I saw that the mature bride is the one who comes “out of the wilderness leaning on her Beloved” (Song of Solomon 8:5) and I knew THAT was who I wanted to be.
However, for me it is a lesson I have to learn time and time again. The snowball effect of life takes over and I find I am caught up in busy busy busy.
I see the effects of my crazy lifestyle on family and friends.
- Conversations with my children become about what they are or are not doing instead of affirming who they are.
- My tongue, which is like a flame that can set a forest on fire, starts to get out of control and I say things that burn others.
- I become irritable and hard to please.
Yes, I see the effects of leaning on my own strength and I don’t like it.
I am thankful for a Good Father and a Faithful Husband who know me, they know my weakness, and they love me despite my seeming inability to ‘get it’. God supernaturally interjects things in my life like a new Grandbaby to get me to ‘pause and think about it’.
For a month I have had the delight of welcoming in my first grandchild and being with my daughter and son-in-love as they have adjusted to life with a baby. I have spent countless hours in a rocking chair.
I am convinced I parent better, I lead better, I love better from the position of rocking in a rocking chair.
My passions are rekindled from this position, my joy is renewed, my love for Jesus and others is deepened…all from the place of rest.
I am reminded of the unending hours I spent in my old blue rocking chair in the deep darkness of my bedroom and my soul when my husband left. Time and time again the Beloved of my soul would whisper His affirming words from the Song of Solomon, washing over every area of rejection, abandonment and shame as I rocked and rocked and rocked.
I remember too when my 3rd child was born, my marriage was rocky and I sat in his room rocking and talking to Jesus, whom I desperately needed as I seemed to be failing on every front. This was a season of awakening for my heart. The birth of my son almost 25 years ago, marks a time in my life when my heart was coming alive to the things of God and His word and I learned to hear and know His voice in that rocking chair.
God has meeting places for us all.
He knows our frame. He delights to be with us.
Some call it the prayer closet, I have heard of women who go to their bathroom in the stillness of the night to meet with Jesus. Some find Jesus next to a babbling brook, or on a path next to their home. Some have learned His voice as the run or ride a bike for miles and miles.
Wherever or however it is: He is wooing us to come away with Him.
Listen to the sound of the Beloved
Let Him “draw you away’” (Song of Solomon 1: 4).
Find rest for your soul (Matthew 11:29)
Take time to re-establish that meeting space and time with Jesus.
Where is a place that you hear Him?
You don’t have to have a plan when you go to this space.
What does it look like for you to be still I that place?
What do you see?
When holding a newborn baby all you do is watch that face.
What do you hear?
When sitting beside a babbling brook you hear the sound of the water.
Enter into rest…
These are all times of worship and rest.
By Misty Honnold
Mother of 2 adult girls, 2 adult sons & 2 amazing NEW sons (married to daughters)
1 Corinthians 13 Parenting Team Member
Executive Director and Founder of The Single MOM KC
Hostess of Mocha Moments For The Single MOM